There I go again, letting Satan have control of my life. He is a bad, bad being, but for some reason, I continue to let him in!! I had been feeling down and out. One bad thing happened, and that just led to about a week of downfalls. It finally got to the point where I said I was sick of trying, and kinda decided to give up for a while. Living a life in Jesus is really hard. I didn't touch my Bible, went to church, but wasn't really there, and put on that fake smile I had been so used to wearing. Sunday/Monday was the last straw. I had had enough. I was defeated. I was knocked down and wasn't getting back up. I was just too tired of it all. That was, until a friend posted Psalm 34 on my Facebook wall (a ton of other friends were very supportive as well). God knows exactly what to tell the right people what to say....
That night I fell to my knees and bawled, telling God I was sorry, and asking Him to forgive me and help me find my way back to Him. I was beginning to feel more at peace, and the things that were happening didn't seem such a huge deal after all. I was liking that feeling, but I still wasn't back on fire, like I had been lately.
Tonight I came home and opened my Bible for the first time in over a week. I wasn't sure where to start, so I decided a Psalm was always good. Number 13, my favorite number. This is what it said:
Psalm 13
O Lord, how long will you forget me?
Forever?
How long will you look the other way?
How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul,
wth sorrow in my heart every day?
How long will my enemy have the upper hand?
Turn and answer me, O Lord, my God!
Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die.
Don't let my enemies gloat, saying,"We have defeated him!"
Don't let them rejoice at my downfall.
But I trust in your unfailing love.
I will rejoice because you have rescued me.
I will sing to the Lord because he is good to me.
The commentary says: the psalmist's piercing cry for help becomes a confident song of hope. Hope- the feeling that you have, that the feelng that you have won't last forever. God couldn't have gotten this message through to me better if He would have stood in front of me in the flesh speaking these same words.
It is hard living a life in Christ. Satan will try every trick over and over again to make us fall. When we fall he will try to keep us down. We are going to fall, God knows this. He talks about it in the Bible. If we don't fall, we are perfect, and none of us are fortunate enough to have that status. When we fall, we need to rely on God's strength and power to help us back up. God is faithful. He is always waiting to lend a hand, whenever we need it. We just have to be faithful and trust that He is the only way. Being vulnerable is something no one feels real comfortable with. But, it is something that is necessary to get back up when you fall. God's arms are always out, ready to pick us up and wipe off the dust. We just have to remember to be faithful no matter what, no matter when.
Giving up and giving in is easy. That's why Satan takes that route. God is great enough to take on the hardships of not giving up, and He wants us to do the same. That is why He is God, and that is why there is no other.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
What I Learned
For those of you who don't know...Activate Groups are small groups at our church that last about 3 months and meet once a week. There are several to choose from and several topics to learn about. This is what my AG has taught me in the past 3 months....
1. Trust God Completely- no matter what you are going through and how difficult or easy it may be, know that God is by your side every minute of it and will walk through it with you. God is the only for sure thing in our life today, and is the only for sure thing in our every single day ahead.
***God, I praise You that You are with me in this moment and You stand in my tomorrow as well.
2. Put God in Every Situation/Focus on Him- God is the reason for our being, for our whole existence. He knows what we need, when we need it and how we need it. We may not get what we want, when we want and how we want, but we will get what we need. Even when we don't understand, we need to put God into the situation, focus on Him and cling to Him with every action.
***God, I praise You for being the wisdom I can lean on when I have none of my own. Circumstances change, but I praise You because You never do.
3. Focus on Relationship, not Religion- Many people think religion is just a set of rules that we think we should follow in order to get to Heaven. Without a relationship with God, religion is nothing more than that. No earthly relationship can be maintained without time, communication and effort from all parties. God does the hard part for us. He longs for a relationship with us. He offers us His time, communication and effort at ANY time we want it....we just need to meet Him in the middle and do our part. A relationship with God is the most rewarding material possession you could ever have.
***God, I praise you for never leaving me and for Your love and Your compassion that never fails.
4. Be Intentional- Focus on your surroundings. Take the time to hold a door open for someone a few steps behind you. Take the time to listen to a friend when they are struggling or joyous. Give your time to help others in greater need than you. The best thing you can give to someone is yourself. Your thoughts, your beliefs, your actions, your material possessions that they have none of. We are all blessed way more than we deserve and we need to take time to be intentional and share those blessings with others.
***God, I praise You for blessing me and giving me the ability to share my blessings with others who are less fortunate and in need.
5. I Can be a World Changer- God has given me the life He has so that I can make a difference. He handpicked me, selected me. Out of all the other people in the world, He trusted me to be effective for Christ. That is a huge responsibility, and one I gladly accept with a humble, peaceful feeling in my heart. I may just be another person in this world, but to one person, I may be the world. Showing even one person the light of God is a magical, amazing, humbling, gratifying experience that cannot be topped.
***God, I praise and thank You for handpicking me to lead a life that is effective for Christ.
In the past 3 months my life has been turned upside down, rightside up, twisted in circles, and back again. It has been an amazing rollercoaster ride and has changed me more than my previous 24 years of life. I thank my AG girls and I thank my God from the bottom of my existence for bringing on this glorious change and I pray that the rollercoaster ride continues to do unspeakable changes in my life so that I may help create unspeakable changes in the lives of others.
1. Trust God Completely- no matter what you are going through and how difficult or easy it may be, know that God is by your side every minute of it and will walk through it with you. God is the only for sure thing in our life today, and is the only for sure thing in our every single day ahead.
***God, I praise You that You are with me in this moment and You stand in my tomorrow as well.
2. Put God in Every Situation/Focus on Him- God is the reason for our being, for our whole existence. He knows what we need, when we need it and how we need it. We may not get what we want, when we want and how we want, but we will get what we need. Even when we don't understand, we need to put God into the situation, focus on Him and cling to Him with every action.
***God, I praise You for being the wisdom I can lean on when I have none of my own. Circumstances change, but I praise You because You never do.
3. Focus on Relationship, not Religion- Many people think religion is just a set of rules that we think we should follow in order to get to Heaven. Without a relationship with God, religion is nothing more than that. No earthly relationship can be maintained without time, communication and effort from all parties. God does the hard part for us. He longs for a relationship with us. He offers us His time, communication and effort at ANY time we want it....we just need to meet Him in the middle and do our part. A relationship with God is the most rewarding material possession you could ever have.
***God, I praise you for never leaving me and for Your love and Your compassion that never fails.
4. Be Intentional- Focus on your surroundings. Take the time to hold a door open for someone a few steps behind you. Take the time to listen to a friend when they are struggling or joyous. Give your time to help others in greater need than you. The best thing you can give to someone is yourself. Your thoughts, your beliefs, your actions, your material possessions that they have none of. We are all blessed way more than we deserve and we need to take time to be intentional and share those blessings with others.
***God, I praise You for blessing me and giving me the ability to share my blessings with others who are less fortunate and in need.
5. I Can be a World Changer- God has given me the life He has so that I can make a difference. He handpicked me, selected me. Out of all the other people in the world, He trusted me to be effective for Christ. That is a huge responsibility, and one I gladly accept with a humble, peaceful feeling in my heart. I may just be another person in this world, but to one person, I may be the world. Showing even one person the light of God is a magical, amazing, humbling, gratifying experience that cannot be topped.
***God, I praise and thank You for handpicking me to lead a life that is effective for Christ.
In the past 3 months my life has been turned upside down, rightside up, twisted in circles, and back again. It has been an amazing rollercoaster ride and has changed me more than my previous 24 years of life. I thank my AG girls and I thank my God from the bottom of my existence for bringing on this glorious change and I pray that the rollercoaster ride continues to do unspeakable changes in my life so that I may help create unspeakable changes in the lives of others.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Wake Up and Smell the Roses!!!
I have been whining a lot lately. Whining about my job, and my financial situation, and my job, and my family, and my job, and not getting what I want, and did I mention....my job?? That's it. It's time for the whining to stop.
Last week I was frustrated about how long it had been since I had gotten a pedicure. I was acting disgusted that I hadn't gotten one in so long, as if getting a pedicure was the most important thing on this earth. All I could think was how incredibly self-centered, selfish and jerkish I was being. Really? all over a pedicure, when there are people out there who don't even know what a hot shower or a warm bed at night feels like??........Get over it, Crystal!!
I hate my job. It's safe to say and everyone knows it. It's not going to get any better, I signed a contract and I am in it for the long haul. Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can change. There are people out there barely surviving because they cannot ger a job to provide for their families.......Get over it, Crystal!
Anyone who knows us knows that we are beyond frustration with this whole baby situation. It' not happening, and we don't know why when we have done everything right. There are people who do not have the love for children in their hearts, and do not know how great a child's love is. There are people who cannot have children and never will be able to......Get over it, Crystal!!
The bills keep piling up and growing. The more money that comes in, the more it seems there is nothing there. There are people who are 110%, completely dependent upon others and could not survive on their own two feet.....Get over it, Crystal!!
There is a theme here that is incredibly hard for a focused, path driven, control freak like myself to swallow. Get over it. Three simple words will be the hardest words I have ever had to choke down in my life. God does everything for a reason, and He has put me where I am for a reason. Instead of being thankful and praising Him for all He has done, I am spending my time whining about all He hasn't. I know other people are getting sick of me whining (my poor husband has it worse than anyone), I am getting sick of me whining, and I KNOW God is getting sick of me whining.
God has given me exactly what I NEED and exactly what I can HANDLE at this point in time. My whining and focus on things I don't have are turning me into a person that cannot do the work that God has for me at this moment. I need to be a good wife and support my husband wholeheartedly, I need to be a good teacher and do the best I can no matter the situation, I need to be a witness for the way accepting Christ has turned my world upside down.
I got a call tonight that a child I taught in preschool last year was killed in a car accident today. She was 4. Her mom is my age. That..... I CAN'T handle.
God, I praise you for all you have done in my lfe in the past year. You have moved mountains in my life and I know this is just the beginning of a wonderful, amazing journey You have planned for me to take with You. You may not give me all I want or have asked for, but You have given me what You know I can handle, and what You want me to have. Lord God, You are wiser than me, and have the great ability to see the big picture that I do not. Give me the serenity to accept what You have entrusted me with wholeheartedly. God, I know You handpicked me for this journey for a secific reason. Lead me to the path You want me to take and give me strength to stay on that path and be a witness for Your amazing love and power. You are the way, the truth and the light in my life and I entrust all I have to You. I surrender to You. And I pray all of this in the powerful, loving beautiful name of Your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Last week I was frustrated about how long it had been since I had gotten a pedicure. I was acting disgusted that I hadn't gotten one in so long, as if getting a pedicure was the most important thing on this earth. All I could think was how incredibly self-centered, selfish and jerkish I was being. Really? all over a pedicure, when there are people out there who don't even know what a hot shower or a warm bed at night feels like??........Get over it, Crystal!!
I hate my job. It's safe to say and everyone knows it. It's not going to get any better, I signed a contract and I am in it for the long haul. Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can change. There are people out there barely surviving because they cannot ger a job to provide for their families.......Get over it, Crystal!
Anyone who knows us knows that we are beyond frustration with this whole baby situation. It' not happening, and we don't know why when we have done everything right. There are people who do not have the love for children in their hearts, and do not know how great a child's love is. There are people who cannot have children and never will be able to......Get over it, Crystal!!
The bills keep piling up and growing. The more money that comes in, the more it seems there is nothing there. There are people who are 110%, completely dependent upon others and could not survive on their own two feet.....Get over it, Crystal!!
There is a theme here that is incredibly hard for a focused, path driven, control freak like myself to swallow. Get over it. Three simple words will be the hardest words I have ever had to choke down in my life. God does everything for a reason, and He has put me where I am for a reason. Instead of being thankful and praising Him for all He has done, I am spending my time whining about all He hasn't. I know other people are getting sick of me whining (my poor husband has it worse than anyone), I am getting sick of me whining, and I KNOW God is getting sick of me whining.
God has given me exactly what I NEED and exactly what I can HANDLE at this point in time. My whining and focus on things I don't have are turning me into a person that cannot do the work that God has for me at this moment. I need to be a good wife and support my husband wholeheartedly, I need to be a good teacher and do the best I can no matter the situation, I need to be a witness for the way accepting Christ has turned my world upside down.
I got a call tonight that a child I taught in preschool last year was killed in a car accident today. She was 4. Her mom is my age. That..... I CAN'T handle.
God, I praise you for all you have done in my lfe in the past year. You have moved mountains in my life and I know this is just the beginning of a wonderful, amazing journey You have planned for me to take with You. You may not give me all I want or have asked for, but You have given me what You know I can handle, and what You want me to have. Lord God, You are wiser than me, and have the great ability to see the big picture that I do not. Give me the serenity to accept what You have entrusted me with wholeheartedly. God, I know You handpicked me for this journey for a secific reason. Lead me to the path You want me to take and give me strength to stay on that path and be a witness for Your amazing love and power. You are the way, the truth and the light in my life and I entrust all I have to You. I surrender to You. And I pray all of this in the powerful, loving beautiful name of Your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Unanswered Prayers
I have been thinking, and unfortunately, complaining a lot lately about why God is not answering my prayer. Not prayers, prayer. One single, small, minor, little thing I am asking Him for that would make a HUGE difference in my life, and that I want more than anything in the world. I know He is hearing me loud and clear, He has answered a million other prayers I have sent up since beginning to pray for this, but never this one little, small, tiny prayer. All I can think is why?, why?, why? The answer hit me like a ton of bricks slapping me in the face today. The answer is unanswered prayer.
I am not going completely off topic here, bear with me as I try to explain this the best I can..........
When we found out 2 years ago that we would have to move to Marion, let's say I was less than thrilled. Our whole life that we knew was in Findlay. Our friends, our schools, our homes, our jobs, our whole life that we have spent together. Why do we have to leave all that behind? Well, I finally sucked it up, after months of unanswered prayers, and Devin moved here to start our life here. That's right, he moved here and I was in Findlay. Reason #1 I never wanted to make the stupid move in the first place. We had to live apart for 6 months, only in our second, the shortest year of our marriage, because I had to finish school and he had to have a job. I saw him a couple weekends a month, if that. Have I told you I didn't want to make this stupid move? Anyway, the whole time I was finishing school I prayed that we could both find jobs in Findlay and Devin could move back and we could be content and continue our life there. That didn't happen. 6 months later I packed my final bags and moved into the house I hated, in the town I hated, around people I hated. Although God provided both of us with a job here (I didn't know it was God until a year later), I continued to pray day after day, night after night that we could find something else in Findlay and move back. I was miserable in Marion. I didn't know anybody here, I didn't have anywhere I could hang out and I hated life here, I hated me here. Reason #2 I never wanted to make the stupid move in the first place. I kept feeling sorry for myself for the longest time. Dweling on all the things I hated and all the things I didn't have here. In January of this year, after 6 months of absolutely loathing life, I gave up and quit fighting...........
I then created my best facebook status ever....."Since it seems as though we are going to be here a while, we mine as well start looking for a church. Does anyone have a good one they could recommend?" Seriously, this is it....word for word. If I would have known how ungreatful I was at that moment, I would have been struck dead right where I sat typing that status. A few people responded with some different churches around town and the things they liked about them. The first one on the list was Celebration. "It has upbeat music and a lot of young people attend it. I think you would like it" Sounds like a winner. I explored the website a little bit and decided it looked like a good place to try out. We went to church the following Sunday, and the following, and the following. Those people on facebook were right. It was upbeat, young people did go there, and we did enjoy it.
Now to make a long story short.......
We have been attending Celebration since January of this year. We have been baptized and accepted into the church in ways I could have never imagined. We have more family in our church than actual blood family. We have made connections that continue to build and branch out to new people every week. We are building substantial relationships with solid foundations. I love and appreciate Devin more and more each day I have him. 6 months ago I could count the people I told I love on less than one hand. Now, I can't even count how many people I tell I love on a weekly, and sometimes daily basis. Just writing this brings me to tears. There is an overwhelming joy in my heart, all the way down to my soul.
It took me too long to realize the cause of all of this.........UNANSWERED PRAYERS!!!!!!!! Now I have been asking God to forgive me every day for the ungreatful, nasty person I was for 6 months straight. Whining and complaining, praying like I knew what was best for me. So now, everytime I start to think about that one single, small, minor, little thing I am asking Him for that would make a HUGE difference in my life, and that I want more than anything in the world, I need to step back and thank him. Not for what He has not given me, but for what He has, without me even asking. God has given me the greatest gift of all by not answering my many, many prayers, and making me move to Marion. I honestly do not know who or where I would be without this unanswered prayer in my life, and it is the greatest answer I will ever get.
Where am I left now? I will continue to pray for this one single, small, minor, little thing I am asking Him for that would make a HUGE difference in my life, and that I want more than anything in the world. But now I can do it with greater confidence knowing that He will answer it when it is time, His time. Because He has given me the greatest gift of all........new life.....I am content with that.
"Remember when you're talking to the man upstairs. Just because He may not answer, doesn't mean He don't care. Some of God's greatest gifts.....are unanswered prayers." - Garth Brooks
I am not going completely off topic here, bear with me as I try to explain this the best I can..........
When we found out 2 years ago that we would have to move to Marion, let's say I was less than thrilled. Our whole life that we knew was in Findlay. Our friends, our schools, our homes, our jobs, our whole life that we have spent together. Why do we have to leave all that behind? Well, I finally sucked it up, after months of unanswered prayers, and Devin moved here to start our life here. That's right, he moved here and I was in Findlay. Reason #1 I never wanted to make the stupid move in the first place. We had to live apart for 6 months, only in our second, the shortest year of our marriage, because I had to finish school and he had to have a job. I saw him a couple weekends a month, if that. Have I told you I didn't want to make this stupid move? Anyway, the whole time I was finishing school I prayed that we could both find jobs in Findlay and Devin could move back and we could be content and continue our life there. That didn't happen. 6 months later I packed my final bags and moved into the house I hated, in the town I hated, around people I hated. Although God provided both of us with a job here (I didn't know it was God until a year later), I continued to pray day after day, night after night that we could find something else in Findlay and move back. I was miserable in Marion. I didn't know anybody here, I didn't have anywhere I could hang out and I hated life here, I hated me here. Reason #2 I never wanted to make the stupid move in the first place. I kept feeling sorry for myself for the longest time. Dweling on all the things I hated and all the things I didn't have here. In January of this year, after 6 months of absolutely loathing life, I gave up and quit fighting...........
I then created my best facebook status ever....."Since it seems as though we are going to be here a while, we mine as well start looking for a church. Does anyone have a good one they could recommend?" Seriously, this is it....word for word. If I would have known how ungreatful I was at that moment, I would have been struck dead right where I sat typing that status. A few people responded with some different churches around town and the things they liked about them. The first one on the list was Celebration. "It has upbeat music and a lot of young people attend it. I think you would like it" Sounds like a winner. I explored the website a little bit and decided it looked like a good place to try out. We went to church the following Sunday, and the following, and the following. Those people on facebook were right. It was upbeat, young people did go there, and we did enjoy it.
Now to make a long story short.......
We have been attending Celebration since January of this year. We have been baptized and accepted into the church in ways I could have never imagined. We have more family in our church than actual blood family. We have made connections that continue to build and branch out to new people every week. We are building substantial relationships with solid foundations. I love and appreciate Devin more and more each day I have him. 6 months ago I could count the people I told I love on less than one hand. Now, I can't even count how many people I tell I love on a weekly, and sometimes daily basis. Just writing this brings me to tears. There is an overwhelming joy in my heart, all the way down to my soul.
It took me too long to realize the cause of all of this.........UNANSWERED PRAYERS!!!!!!!! Now I have been asking God to forgive me every day for the ungreatful, nasty person I was for 6 months straight. Whining and complaining, praying like I knew what was best for me. So now, everytime I start to think about that one single, small, minor, little thing I am asking Him for that would make a HUGE difference in my life, and that I want more than anything in the world, I need to step back and thank him. Not for what He has not given me, but for what He has, without me even asking. God has given me the greatest gift of all by not answering my many, many prayers, and making me move to Marion. I honestly do not know who or where I would be without this unanswered prayer in my life, and it is the greatest answer I will ever get.
Where am I left now? I will continue to pray for this one single, small, minor, little thing I am asking Him for that would make a HUGE difference in my life, and that I want more than anything in the world. But now I can do it with greater confidence knowing that He will answer it when it is time, His time. Because He has given me the greatest gift of all........new life.....I am content with that.
"Remember when you're talking to the man upstairs. Just because He may not answer, doesn't mean He don't care. Some of God's greatest gifts.....are unanswered prayers." - Garth Brooks
Monday, October 25, 2010
Instant Gratification
I have had an incredibly heavy heart lately, and I am not sure as to the complete reason why. Sure, there are some things going on that could be better and some things that I have been waiting for that have not shown up yet, but overall my life is nowhere near where I expected it to be, and that in itself is a gift from God.
I felt awkward since the minute I woke up today. I was overly sluggish, even for a Monday morning, and just did not have good feelings while getting ready for work. On my drive to work I prayed, asking God to give me patience with the kids (something I ask for each day on my drive to work... :) ), and thanking Him for all the amazing things He has been doing in my life. I got to school and this overwhelming feeling of sadness hit me. I was a mess, physically and emotionally. I had to do everything I could to hold back crying, for reasons I am not even sure of. I looked horrible, like my soul had literally been sucked out of me, and felt even worse. Even the kids who I really enjoy that come in to talk to me every morning could not make this horrible, gut-wrenching, in the pit of my stomach feeling go away. Thank goodness I have conference first period.
During this time, I took time to pray again, asking God to take this feeling away and help me make it through the day without completely falling apart, the way I felt inside, that I felt was going to tear out of me at any moment. Literally, not 10 seconds after I ended my prayer, my heart felt instant peace. I know that sounds incredibly crazy and unrealistic, and if I had not experienced it myself I would not have believed it, but in that moment God gave me the instant gratification I needed to make it through the day. Even as I write this blog and remember my feelings this morning, I still have complete peace in my heart.
I am confident that this is God telling me that even though He has not answered my months-long prayers (yet!!), that He still knows I am here and still loves me just the same, but it's just not the right time. Honestly, I was starting to get down and out about the unanswered prayers, but His love pouring on me seconds after I asked was definite reassurance that He knew I needed to know that my prayers have not been unheard. I cannot thank Him enough for that reassurance.
What I learned from this experience today is that I want to love others like God loves me. I want to love me like God loves me. And most importantly, I want to love God like He loves me. I want this love to shine through me, into others. Every single day I want to be a reflection of God's amazing love.
Celebration Christian Church, and the amazing people there have allowed me to begin this journey. I never would have thought being in Marion, Ohio could serve as a positive experience, but as I said earlier, my life is nowhere near where I expected it to be, but it is right where it needs to be. I wouldn't have even dreamed of it a year ago, but I thank God everyday for bringing me here now and for the people He has put in my life when I needed them most. He sure knows what He is doing!!!!!
Now my task is to let go and let God.....Let the battle begin!
I felt awkward since the minute I woke up today. I was overly sluggish, even for a Monday morning, and just did not have good feelings while getting ready for work. On my drive to work I prayed, asking God to give me patience with the kids (something I ask for each day on my drive to work... :) ), and thanking Him for all the amazing things He has been doing in my life. I got to school and this overwhelming feeling of sadness hit me. I was a mess, physically and emotionally. I had to do everything I could to hold back crying, for reasons I am not even sure of. I looked horrible, like my soul had literally been sucked out of me, and felt even worse. Even the kids who I really enjoy that come in to talk to me every morning could not make this horrible, gut-wrenching, in the pit of my stomach feeling go away. Thank goodness I have conference first period.
During this time, I took time to pray again, asking God to take this feeling away and help me make it through the day without completely falling apart, the way I felt inside, that I felt was going to tear out of me at any moment. Literally, not 10 seconds after I ended my prayer, my heart felt instant peace. I know that sounds incredibly crazy and unrealistic, and if I had not experienced it myself I would not have believed it, but in that moment God gave me the instant gratification I needed to make it through the day. Even as I write this blog and remember my feelings this morning, I still have complete peace in my heart.
I am confident that this is God telling me that even though He has not answered my months-long prayers (yet!!), that He still knows I am here and still loves me just the same, but it's just not the right time. Honestly, I was starting to get down and out about the unanswered prayers, but His love pouring on me seconds after I asked was definite reassurance that He knew I needed to know that my prayers have not been unheard. I cannot thank Him enough for that reassurance.
What I learned from this experience today is that I want to love others like God loves me. I want to love me like God loves me. And most importantly, I want to love God like He loves me. I want this love to shine through me, into others. Every single day I want to be a reflection of God's amazing love.
Celebration Christian Church, and the amazing people there have allowed me to begin this journey. I never would have thought being in Marion, Ohio could serve as a positive experience, but as I said earlier, my life is nowhere near where I expected it to be, but it is right where it needs to be. I wouldn't have even dreamed of it a year ago, but I thank God everyday for bringing me here now and for the people He has put in my life when I needed them most. He sure knows what He is doing!!!!!
Now my task is to let go and let God.....Let the battle begin!
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